OH mY gOoDnEsS!!

I have never been so frustrated! I am so sick of people and how rude they are! Its annoying! I dislike coming home crying and not knowing what to do.

There are good and bad things that has happened in the last month and the beginning of this month. Lets start with the bad and then on to the good. I want to do the bad first because I want it out of my system. :P

Girls and their crap (so called Drama). "Jackie" is a person who I thought was a good friend. I have known her since 8th grade and at first she was cool and very nice to me. As school rolled on and we got older and attended high school, she changed. And I was alright with it... Until recently. I was driving home from mutual with my best friend "Madison" and she told me a few things that "Jackie" has said about me behind my back. More like rumors.

"Marie". All she talks about is guys. "This guy likes me" "This guy is really cute" "Did you see that?! He was looking at me" "I'm Russian" "I might have a boyfriend soon". That is all she talks about. Its all about her. And that's fine i guess. if you do it every once in a while. Not constantly like her. Well my sister "Megan" sometimes talks to "Marie" and "Marie" says stuff to "Megan" that can hurt someone... as of right now ... Me.

I am not going into details but, I am so sick of everybody "Walking all over" me because they think it will benefit them. But in the end it just "Bite" them in the butt.

The GOOD: :D

Ah.. I am really happy. My previous post about the stars and such, Its because I like this guy and he is fantastic. We went to a school dance and had so much fun. An when those pictures come in, I will post them. :D

I am so thankful for my best friend "Madison." Without her, I have no clue where I would be. She is someone I can trust and be myself and she won't judge me. She is one in a million and I am very lucky to have found her and to call her my Best Friend.

I am thankful for my mom and my boss. I can tell them anything and they will listen and do the best that they can to help me.

I am extremely blessed to have such great people in my life.

Simply Amazing

When you look at the stars and the wind blows in your hair and all you can think about is him? Just wishing he could hold you, keep you safe and warm?

I really like him and all I can think about is him. It bugs me that my parents can’t seem to understand that I like somebody and it’s not just a crush. It’s something more. I am told I am falling in love with him… we want to hang out all the time. We talk all the time. Just the other day, he took me to school and we sat in the car and talked. Moments like that are special and should be kept as a memory for forever. It doesn’t happen very often; and when it does happen you want to grab hold of it and savor it.
I realized a while ago, that he goes on a mission here shortly in July and I graduate next year.

When I am with him, I am me. I don’t have to pretend to be somebody I’m not. I feel safe around him. When I am not with him, I think about him constantly. Needing him, wanting him and wishing he was here with me; to hold me and know that everything is going to be okay. He compliments me all the time and knows just what to say. He makes me laugh and smile. He’s amazing!

I know my parents rule is to protect me, but I don’t see the harm in being with him. He goes on a mission soon. The rule stinks! I hate it! I don’t mind it with everybody else, but with him, its killing me. He’s the best thing that ever happened to me.

When I am at school, I sometimes can’t concentrate on my work because I am constantly thinking about him. I am afraid of one thing...That I might lose him.



The more I don’t see him, the more I need/want him. Is that bad? I’ve been through a lot and he is the only on that pops in my head. He’s amazing. That’s the best word that comes to mind. He is just perfect in every aspect. I couldn’t be any happier. I have an urge to want to see him. Talk to him, be with him. Just being with him is a moment to savor. Everything is natural with him. He has a way of making laugh and smile. He’s the best thing that has ever happened to me. How lucky can I get? I am lucky to have him, I am lucky that he likes me back. Whenever I think about him, an instant smile is on my face.

Christmas is Near

Are you all ready for Christmas? I know I am! For the most part at least. There is snow on the ground. :) Its sunny! Everybody has their decorations up and the Christmas joy is in their favor. Last minute Christmas shopping is always fun! People are crazy! haha Merry Chirstmas everybody!

Food In you Mouth?!

So, I was recently looking at some old pictures I found of myself...Man was I chunky! :P

So, I have recently enrolled in Aerobics class at school. And we do a lot of stuff in there. And boy do you get sore. :P When I first started this class I think my weight was at... 135? somewhere around there and know believe it or not im 128! Ya!

I have cut down my eating habits quite tremendously...I dont eat as much as I used to. :P and work out... Crunches, leg lifts, weights... you get the just of it.

So, by the end of the school year.... my goal is to be 120.... Lets see if I can do it!

Is it Possible?

So... I like a guy(s) and I don't know what to do... I think I have fallen and I certanly can't get out. I mean, when you like someone, dont you want to be with them? hmmm... Life is a Battlefeild... haha

The snow is perfect just like him. :P And I can't help but simply stand amazed.

Simply Amazing!

Until I Met You

Before I met you,
I thought I was happy,
and I was,
but I had never known
the rich contentment,
deep satisfaction,
and total fulfillment
you brought to me
when you came into my life.
Before I met you,
I felt a lot of things,
good things,
but I had never experienced
the indescribably intense
feelings I have for you.
Before I met you,
I thought I knew myself,
and I did,
but you looked deep inside me
and found fresh new things
for us to share.
Before I met you,
I thought I knew about love,
but I didn’t,
until I met you.


By Joanna Fuchs

One In A Million
You're one in a million, my most special one;
Your radiant smile is as bright as the sun;
You're smart and caring and have many great charms,
And my heart really sings when you're wrapped in my arms.


I'm happy you chose me from all of the rest,
And I'm proud 'cause I know that I got the best.
You're so cute and sweet, and you glow like a pearl;
I just love you so much, my most wonderful girl!


By Karl Fuchs

Always

I always yearn to come to you,
be with you,
meet your needs,
feed your hungers.
I will always cherish you,
treasure you,
adore you.
I aways want to be yours,
always.


By Joanna Fuchs

My Very Own Christmas Present...(That I happend to have bought myself... )

So, we all know Christmas is coming up and very quickly too.
All the shopping and the feasting. Familes are gathering to share this joyous time. We have been given the gift of giving and that is what we must do...

But I have a twist on that... I indeed decided I needed something very badly... and that surprise was a Laptop.I should have it a few weeks before Christmas. Yipee and congrats to me!!!

So, have a happy holiday to you and your family.